Song: He looked beyond my faults by Vanessa Bell
Sharing your struggles can sometimes be very uncomfortable, especially as want people to think we have everything together. However, this is not always the case and we don’t encounter some valleys and trials.
Since Wednesday I was very down, distressed and troubled inside of me. I was going through so much pain that I almost collapsed because it was all too much for me. Because of this, I stopped praying and reading my bible. This mid-morning and afternoon while I was fellowshipping with God Something divine happened to me . As my heart was bleeding profusely from my battles in life. I was tried and exhausted and I didn’t feel the urge to pray. However, I felt that it was alright and I was at peace and because the Spirit makes intercessions and groans in which we cannot express (Romans 8:26). In other words, I felt that at this particular time, God wanted to heal the pain and hurt that had kept me bound and stopped me from prayer and intercession. As I was in fellowship with God, I was in another place, a place that was so peaceful and where my joy, faith, and love was recovered, where it didn’t matter if I made if I stumbled because his forgiveness was more than enough to remove all mistakes. So I just quietly sat as He heard all my pain, troubles, concerns and healed me from my agonies and lifted me. Throughout my fellowship, tears just continues to flow from my eyes down to my chin as the power of the Holy Spirit continued to administer to me and heal me. (Psalm 55:22, 1 Peter 5:7). So rest assured and know that God does understand our hurts and feelings by opening ourselves to him and pray as well.
It’s not easy when the valleys come in your life and the natural tendency for me is to withdraw or allow my circumstances to dictate my life But not I know, I can run to Him who understands me feelings and in Him, my faith, love, peace abides in Him. I don’t need to fix everything, rather, I want to trust in Him with all of my heart and lean not unto my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5), even if it means, people cut me out or don’t wish the best for me.
I really don’t know what to say but say thank you Jesus, because you looked beyond my faults and who other people or even myself would condemn me for, and you saw the best in me. In you I am made whole ( scripture which I got from bible study on Friday). Keep holding on, and you will see the light at the end of the tunnel. Just as this song above healing. I pray, that it may bring healing to your life as well.